I was sitting on the train on my way to work this morning and I usually doze off and take my mini nap. Waking up everyday at 4:30 AM is not easy and with the soothing sound of the train I tend to lean my head to the side and just close my eyes to take a little breather from the morning chaos, but this morning for some reason I stood up didn’t feel sleepy at all. I’ve been feeling kind of down. Well it’s because I recently put a little notice out on the social media about if anyone is looking to place any orders for baked goods (cupcakes, cookies, etc…) and I haven’t gotten any feedback at all yet and I vented to my husband that maybe I’m just not cut out to do this or maybe no one really likes my baking. Thank you God that he is being so supportive..poor guy even tries to soothe my woes and just tells me to be patient give it time it’ll come around….Love Him for being so understanding with me at times like these.
Any way, as I was sitting in that stuffy train car I was looking around me looking at each person coming in and out of the train at each stop and I noticed one thing that 90% of what everyone was doing and it was RUSHING. Everyone has this look of rush (stress, worry…) pacing looking at their watches and phones to check the time. No sense of peace at all in the atmosphere it was just not a joyous feeling coming from anyone.
Then the word RUSH just stuck in my mind….RUSH?…..why do we all rush so much? I asked in my heart God why do we rush for everything is it even right to be this way? “What does God say about Rush?” I actually stuck this question in GOOGLE search engine and a ton of info came up. I know as a believer that rushing isn’t of God I know because I was raised with it but I feel like I’m not living it though like NOT walking it out because I do rush for many things. Rushing leads to being easily disappointed, discouraged, selfish, confused, frustrated, worried, and untrusting of God which sums up all to be SINS…this blew my mind. So by being a rush-a-holic it easily lets the enemy take this and run with it and cause complete chaos in your mind. There was so many people in the bible that rushed and it never ever ended completely well…. (ex: Sara and the whole rushing Abraham to have a baby deal…Genesis 16:2, 21 1-14, 15:4-21:21)
While I was thinking of writing this post I realize yeah I want to have my little baking side business up and popping already cause it’s one of my heart desires, but I can not rush it. It has to be up to God’s timing. See I don’t want to do this whole baking deal for just financial gain, yes money helps but money comes and goes and what I want is to use this gift God gave me for his purpose not for my own selfish need or want. I don’t want to do anything that doesn’t align up with what he wants and I just know in my heart that with time and his favor it will come to bloom. Just be patient and trust God because there is always a bigger picture that our minds just can’t grasp.
So seriously lets all just take a moment to stop and ask God to just put his heart desires in our hearts instead and it’s guaranteed all else will fall into place and all worries, frustrations, etc…will melt away like sugar in the rain. We will eventually get to work, school, home without having to rush.
Have a Blessed Day!